Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Calm My Anxious Heart and Mind

Today my heart is anxious.  I find myself worrying about things I have NO control over.  We are done with paperwork...for  right now.  I think deep down I thought this day would never come…it seemed so far off.  God, on the other hand, had a different plan for us.  Never in a million years did I think that I would already be able to stare at our beautiful daughter's picture.  Never in a million years did I think that we could travel in  January.  Never in a million years did I think that I would be getting Zoey Love’s room ready for her, in the month of December (2011).  If I sit and let my mine wonder, I grow anxious.  My heart begins to race and I fill a little out of control.  Nothing in my life has stirred me like the adoption of this little girl.  It has taken me out of my place of comfort and put me directly in God’s arms.  I must lean on Him daily or I find myself doubting everything.  Not to long ago Ty and I prayed together and he said something so profound…He said that Satan didn’t want this to happen…that Satan was going to start working double time to stop this beautiful family from growing.  It really hit me-Satan doesn’t want us to get Zoey.  He doesn't want Zoey to have a forever family.  Satan wants me to be anxious and worry about tomorrow.  The more I fill my head with doubt and worry then I am not growing in God…I am not allowing this to be a wonderful journey of faith but a journey of fear.  I don’t think so…I’ve got the Creator Of the Universe, on my side and I will not be anxious…instead I will put on my armor of faith!!!  Watch out Satan!!!
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:6-7

Consumed By Love,